Still Sad

Somehow, days go by even when it seems impossible. I guess I just wanted to post a small update, although I don't really know what to say.

I'm not doing good. People don't like to hear that. People automatically want to help, or try to "cheer" a sad person up. I really do appreciate the love, but I really don't think anyone can really help. I guess I'm the only one that can do that, and I haven't a clue how. How else would I feel but depressed? Kenny is moved out, and I haven't seen him in what seems like years. I still feel totally blindsided. I can't understand why this is happening to me. How I never saw it coming. How I'm pregnant, and alone. How he is gone, and seemingly going on with his life like nothing is happening. So anyways, I guess this isn't much of an update.. nothing has really changed.

Thank you for the love, and the messages, and the offers for support. I REALLY appreciate it. I've still got a lot to learn about letting people help me, instead of my "suffer in silence" approach.

Love,
Jes